I have a vision for the life that I’m wanting to build for myself and I’m well on my way to building it. There is, however, a small niggling feeling this isn’t all quite over yet. I’ve got to make a final sacrifice this Scorpio season… we all have to my loves. And that final sacrifice is going to dictate whether we take steps toward our highest frequency, or if we stay trapped and regress back into our old habits.
I predict the next month, we are going to be confronted with a very important decision that’s going to affect our personal growth more than ever. We’ve shifted into the Age of Aquarius. The Saturn retrograde over the last 4 months was also in Aquarius, so it has been requiring us to think about ourselves in the world as part of a collective. What are you contributing to this world? And how is it that you’ll be remembered? This Saturn retrograde has all been about service, and it has us thinking of the services we offer to others in this life.
Service really is of the highest order. One of the parents of a kid I used to teach in Pacifica, California; their family was Catholic. His Mom said something very wise to me at a time I really needed to hear it. I was struggling to build my swimming lesson business and when she asked me if I did anything else beside coaching. I kind of went into some long-winded explanation of where I was at in my life, and because of how long-winded it was, it sort of highlighted my feelings of self-consciousness in terms of where I was in that exact moment of my life.
I could tell this Catholic Mom could see right through me. As I finished my, 7 minute schpeel about how I was working a coffee job for insurance purposes but trying to start a swim lesson business, but finding it difficult to find people in the Bay Area with any REAL money that wasn’t tied up in stock and somehow imaginary. My business runs on liquid assets, not stock, and finding people in the Bay Area that are cash rich is actually quite tough. As I finished my words, she let there sit a long pause. One that made me feel so uncomfortable because I had so obviously said way too much about myself in a short car-ride. After an eternity she said: “Well, sometimes you can find yourself in service to others.” And the words struck me like lightning. She dropped me at the Millbrae Train Station and the words sat with me for a while.
My gift and service that I have to share with this world is my Swim Coaching. Now that Saturn, the planet of self-restraint and discipline is spinning direct, we are all in for one more rude awakening to round out the year. Something is going to happen soon that’s going to allow us the opportunity to shift something within ourselves. However, we each have to be listening to the winds and paying attention in order to hear the message.
When you know, you’ll know. And when it happens, it’ll hit you like a ton of bricks. This moment will come with an intense emotion and please make special note of whether this emotion is positive or negative. If it’s a negative one, you’ll need to take this emotional energy and channel it as motivation for a project that will come into fruition within the next 8-12 months. If it is a positive one, it means you’ll have worked hard on yourself during the Saturn retrograde and the Universe is recognizing this and rewarding you for your service.
Scorpio Season is going to be twice as intense this year because Mars moves into Scorpio next weekend on the 30th of October I believe. This is such a powerful time for change. This is an incredibly powerful moment to make beautiful sacrifices that will pay off dividends in the future.
For me, my Saturn retrograde has been a big exercise in self-discipline and restraint. It has been about staying patient. It has been about staying hungry. The Saturn Retrograde in Aquarius was all about love for me, as Venus is in Aquarius in my star chart. I’ve learned a lot of hard lessons learned in love this summer but I’ve managed to captured that energy, and then I drew fire from it to kick-start a propeller that would catapult me forward into dealing with other areas of my life that needed to be worked on.
I’m in that productive living part of life. My schedule next week is booked and busy with coaching everyday. I’m hearing from parents who want their children to do swim lessons on a daily basis. I’m running an agenda on my phone and finding clashes everywhere, which really feels good because it means I’m busy.
This is the beginning. This is the inception.. There is a long road ahead, however I have the mental clarity and physical fortitude to venture forth on this journey. Clearing my body, mind, spirit, and soul the past 4 months has been so intense! Realizing and accepting there are things that are still trapped deep inside me, a lot of hurt and pain, but choosing not to beat myself up over the fact that time is all it takes to heal. I can’t run away from feeling it anymore though, I have to welcome it forward and bring it into healing.
The final sacrifice I’m probably going to have to make is probably social media related, which I don’t think is going to be sorely missed because barely 300 people view my stories at a time anymore anyway lol. What these numbers mean I really don’t know. I spend no time on the insights portion of my IG page. I’m sure I’m posting at the wrong time, all the time.
I’m working with children and whether I like it or not, that comes with the responsibility of respectability. I don’t think the issue is with the children as much as it is their parents. Placing myself in a parent’s shoes, I don’t know if I’d want my kid coached by an Olympian twerking all over IG no matter how good their coaching is. As much as I’d like to booty-pop to Kendrick Lamar’s newest song, which is a welcomed comeback for hip-hop, the vision I have of my future career will be hindered because of that type of content.
I know that Millenials and Gen-Z will change this, but for right now I’m pretty adamant that this is my final sacrifice. Probably for the best as social media doesn’t have the best reputation right now.
Maybe I can re-brand and reinvent my Instagram page to be more swimming focused, and feed clients into my business that way? I still feel the need to have a creative outlet, and it is a shame that IG will no longer serve that avenue of creativity like it used to for me but there are always other things.
What’s your final sacrifice this Scorpio season in order for you to discover the service you provide to the world in this lifetime? Feel free to comment below. X