The next Full Moon in Sagittarius is all about leaving baggage behind because we cannot be bringing it to the new destination.
This week has been a bit upsetting for me. I know you’ve been waiting for “Two Scoop Paradise Pt. III” and I apologize for it not being released yet. There’s just been a lot of stuff going on in my private world that’s been very complicated.
To say I’m emotionally exhausted would be putting it mildly.
It goes back to how I opened all this: we have to let go of the baggage because there’s no space for it at the new destination.
The problem isn’t me and my baggage. I’ve already let go. And let me tell you: I was ready to let it go of it too! Felt so good to be totally honest with you.
What I’m faced with now are people that are upset because I’ve let go of my baggage. I’m Tongan. We are all about the baggage, I mean have you seen our people? They carry hefty baggage, and I know that deep down it comes from an emotional place. Swallowing one’s words and swallowing one’s emotions but not having the ability to digest them properly shows up in the physical.
I am in the fight of my life to try and stay trim here. Like, I do not want any baggage! But people around me keep wanting me to pick it up again and I just don’t have space for it at my new destination.
So to them, we’re at an impasse. But to me, I’ve already made up my mind.
I’m dealing with people who operate from a: “we must stick together at all costs” mindset and it just doesn’t really gel with the new me. Don’t get me wrong! I can totally get down to loyalty. Love loyalty down. I would call myself an incredibly loyal person! And I’ll do my absolute best to make a situation work if my heart is still in it. But I will not “stick together” with others if it is at the expense of my physical, mental, and emotional health. No sirree!
I communicated this fact. And so now we leave it at that.
The exhaustion of having to stand up for myself, my god I just don’t have the capacity. And it’s super frustrating because my body is in a bit of a fragile state, trying to regain my Qi while going to law school.
Every time I finally get my nervous system quiet enough to build momentum again, somebody comes rattling the cage. And it’s so unfair because it’s not even like I’m doing it to myself! I’m literally minding my own business when other people keep badgering me about a decision I grieved a very long time ago.
I want to be in a solid place again. One where I can then have the energy to step back into the outside world once again. Be less reclusive. And when left fully alone I truly believe I’ll get there.
So to those reading this I want you to know that I have the energetic output for the following:
Law School
Regaining Qi
Gym & Swim for stress relief
Content creation when energy permits it
My Crush
That’s literally fucking it okay. Do not come to me with anything else that is missing on that list.
I do not care to reconcile with people who do not appreciate how I show up in love, okay? It’s done. I’m a Sagittarius, when I’ve grieved it, I’ve moved on from it, so please understand that I’ve grieved this and now I’m moving on.
